What's going on!?!?!

I feel kinda like i am banging her over the head with what i am feeling.
Like that is not fair to her cause as she said she's happy. She doesn't dwell in things.
I do, it's my nature. She can be happy and adapt. I wonder what it all means....maybe even obsessively wonder what it all means.

I don't know where we are going. What life will look like 6 months from now.....
I do want to try and figure it out, but not sure she believes me.
I don't want to make mistakes i have in the past. I really do want to figure shit out.